All my life I kept chasing other people, personalities and love. People changed, personalities had two faces and love, that actually never ever tried to chase me back. All of which I wanted to grab in my one fist, shattered like I had no intensions to keep them. Life, a mirage, or the life I desire or yearn for is a mirage, I’m confused.
Here, now, when I’m about 22 years, 1 month and 26 days old, I’m confused about life. When I used to play in my childhood, I had always admired being an adult or young. I was fascinated by a life where you are definitely not going to have any interruption, I thought people live their lives on their own terms and conditions. But now here when I am this old, I think how innocent was I to think like that way. Because now when I try to understand life, it feels complicated. You see a new page everyday, scripted and scrolled by the Almighty. Earlier I used to think I can write my life’s story but later I realized, though I am a writer yet I can only pen down the things on paper which has already happened.
I feel like I am sitting on the driver’s seat, that car is a similar as life but the steering wheels, steering wheels are not within my reach.
So here I was about to talk about chasing various things in life. Sometimes when I introspect, it feels chasing people or chasing wrong people, doesn’t matter, hurts anyway. I mean, why the fuck I am not chasing my ownself? Is that any different from the mankind? I mean, does he have three legs or four ears? No, nothing among these. The reason to this is, I feel, I’m not that good, beautiful, influencing or sexy enough to attract somebody. I feel that I have been sent to earth with flaws and lackings. But does that mean I’m the only one with flaws and lackings? No. Even the richest guys of all the times failed to take their wealth with them. Weren’t that the biggest defeat to a person who all his kept himself busy chasing wealth? Yes, a big big yes.
If I talk about chasing love, then I should also mention the thing that love is a never ending feeling. I mean, why do we need to chase the person with whom we are in love? I guess, we all love our mothers too, so do we need to chase them all the time to cook us food and care for us? Technically or non technically, no.
Don’t chase love, it’s not a target given to you by the opposite team in a cricket match. Love, definitely is not a target. Don’t just run after it, run along with it instead.
Chase Your Dreams
Chase your dreams, no matter what you do, where you reach, just keep chasing your desires every single moment, that will be how you will explore more things in you, which weren’t discovered yet ever before. Run after your dreams, whether you saw one with open eyes or at 4 a.m. in the morning. Keep pursuing them. Because after 10 years from now, when you will turn back and see, you definitely going to realise that chasing people didn’t pay you a penny but chasing your dreams and yourself actually did.